One man's impact in terror

O.k. In going over everyone else's blogs I realize that a) not having a t.v. is the equivalent of living under a rock- I have no idea what these shows are! and b) I come off as a creepy, angry woman who will most likely end up in a trailer with a shotgun and cats. Although this may very well be true- I will try a new tactic with this blog. I wrote my last two while very stressed and overcaffinated yesterday. Let's see how this goes.

I was just reading about the gunman that is lose at Wesleyan. Even looking at these words as I type them I realize the impact that each has on the body who reads the. Gun-man: implying a trigger happy hulking male, Lose: outside of the controlled body, renegade from social norm and Foulcault's notion of control; he cannot be observed so he cannot be controlled. So few words can create such a horrifying picture- my heart truly goes out to the students aand community of Wesleyan.

I've been trying to look at things in contexts and relation to one another and it's so bizzare the impact and force one action can have, and how apathetic we can be towards events on a mass scale. This is not to discount the importance or horror of either of these- but we can read reports daily of the mass casualties to AIDS, in Darfur, or in Gaza- but for some reason when the numbers are that great I feel that we are horrified. I see this as distinct from terror. Terror seems to shake our core and be able to directly impact how we feel about ourselves- horror we can easily dismiss as not our problem. It's horrific, but somehow we can disassociate that from us. I'm curious to hear what other people thing the seperation is between horror and terror in events like these. When are we horrified but not terrorized etc- we're horrified by the act that could possibly be perpetrated against us- isn't that terrorism??

This is why when I read stories about Wesleyan- I feel terrorized myself. I can see this happening- it is one person assaulting the way we shape and form our lives and society- he terrorizes our whole society not just Wesleyan.